Monday, May 19, 2014

Dang what a week it has been! This week has been so bipolar. It's

Crazy! So like the first of last week was in the 90's for 4 straight

days. Super hot! And our fan blew up so it was miserable to sleep.

But we made it happen. Then the next three days it rained straight. And

dropped to 50 degrees. Was crazy weather. I love the rain though.

Makes the earth feel so beautiful. Lately I have been thinking about

marine life. I have no idea why. But whales and turtles are just so

beautiful. Anywho back to bipolar, this week has been crazy. Some of

our investigators, well all of our investigators are struggling with

the word of wisdom. Makes it fun to try and teach them that they can't

be baptized and smoke still. I would like to tell everyone of my

experiences this week. So through many lessons and many trials this

week I have found my stress and anger levels rising a little bit.

Which is not normal for me. And then I would go to a lesson and teach

people about Jesus Christ and how he treated others. We had a few

instances this week that lead me to thinking negative thoughts about

people. Particularly those who were making our job harder. Towards the

end of the week I seemed to be getting strangely on edge, and

sarcastic with others. Now hold up the boat for a bit... A disciple of

Christ being hypocritical and bipolar. Hmmm something's wrong here. I

took a moment to sit and think and ponder why I had been acting this

way. And once I realized it was childish and not appropriate for the

image I was trying to put towards the Church of Jesus Christ. I then

stumbled and kneeled in prayed and begged for forgiveness. Very

humbling moment as a missionary. I still need help and love from my

Savior everyday. Now I understand that this experience can relate to

everyone. But I'm more happy that I was able to experience it for

myself. Pride is an abomination. And it seems like these past two

weeks I have had many humbling experiences. I have read many things

about humility. And I think The Lord is trying to tell me something.

Now I realize that this email is a little self centered, and

confusing. I hope y'all can pull something decent out of it. If anyone

has any really good talks or stories about humility I would love to

hear them! Honestly. This is a thing I am trying to improve with in

my life. Thanks for reading. Sorry for the shortness and probable

confusion.

GRIZZ 👻..